for the little one

好多人建议我写公众号或者其他,先撇去文笔不说,实在是下不去手,也许跟我的性格有关,有些事情是不想去分享的,只想留给自己,或者写在一个正经的本子上或者一张皱巴巴的废纸上或者随便哪个能收藏起来的地方。又或者是因为觉得自己并没有做什么特殊的事情,没什么可分享的,如果有人需要从我这里知道点什么,那就直接问就好了。所以就这样。

看着你站在地上相比之下那么小的身躯却因为时间这个神秘的东西让你迅速的变得这么大,恍如梦,不过你以前的模样我已经记不太清楚了,仿佛过了很久很久,模糊在了北京冬天的霎风里,一切都在当下,你一直就像现在,过去的现在现在的现在和将来的现在。已经完全不记得没有你的日子曾经是什么样子,甚至于大肚之时的感觉也被时间的大火噬尽了。想起你?不不,根本不用去想,你一直都在,在我思考的时候,在我和别人交谈的时候,你变成了我的一部分,不需要想起,不需要挂念,你一直都在。

可是我依然是我,我没有因为你的出现而失去自己,也没有因为只有我们两个人的生活而觉得憋息,他们问我是不是很无聊是不是很想出来,我很纳闷,我进去了哪里?难道这不是这趟生命旅程里必备的一段修炼吗?这让我从照顾你(不过我知道自己并没有很好很好的照顾到你,因为我总是偶尔想要小小的你照顾一下我😳)观察你追赶你的时候慢慢成长,这让我变成了一个我更喜欢的人,一个更自信更放松的人,也实实在在的体验了一把自己很多很多的情绪变化而慢慢的学会控制。这样,有你多好,幸而得你,不,幸而偎你额头软软一吻便知道了幸福是什么。

我实在无法描述你给我带来了什么,你的一颦一笑都是最好的,你的一个浅浅的么融化成蜜蜜的棉丝丝入心,多爱你,多爱你,说不出来,就像现在的你美梦精灵,下一秒如果你醒来,我会想自己是暗森林的魔巫撒点晶晶闪的粉来安慰安慰自己😊。多爱你,多爱你,说不出来,就像是jessie j塞了六块棉花糖说不出话,因为可能下一秒我会因为你的一些反抗有点失落。可是这算什么呢,什么都比不你抱过来嗯嗯的拍拍温温我起伏的气息。多爱你,多爱你,你知道。

不写了,累了,肝儿疼。。。你要好梦到天亮,好好吃饭好好打屁好好发疯好好开心好好造作。

mommy you are the best!

至于下面的英文,要努力做到,得加油

Your children are not your children. 
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself. 

They come through you but not from you, 
And though they are with you, yet they belong not to you. 

You may give them your love but not your thoughts. 
For they have their own thoughts. 

You may house their bodies but not their souls, 
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams. 

You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you. 
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday. 

You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth. 
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, 
and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far. 

Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness; 

For even as he loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable.

Author: Sophia

我听别人说这世界上有一种鸟是没有脚的,它只能够一直的飞呀飞呀,飞累了就在风里面睡觉,这种鸟一辈子只能下地一次,那一次就是它死亡的时候。 Aboout Sophia | http://isophie.org/索菲亚一世/

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