6月7号

刚刚看了一下语文作文试题,大都要求800字,我可能连100字都写不出来了。大脑处于”贫穷“的状态,精神财富都耗尽了还没有及时补充。(妹妹醒了😓)

自从高考完以后再也没有关注过高考了,16年了,本来以为永远的事不关己了,可是有了孩子,在孩子慢慢长大的过程中,高考又慢慢的回到我的视野里。也许都以为当了全职妈妈就是与社会脱节,其实当妈妈更要想的更全面些,孩子的成长是日积月累的,他是生活在一个真实的世界里,每天接收的事物刺激世界观的形成(词语匮乏不知道咋写)。

老大长大以后每天看了新闻都会挑着给他看一下或者讲一下,爸爸看到好的视频和新闻也会转发。前段时间的天文一号成功登陆火星、袁隆平院士去世、印度的疫情等等,跟他说说给他一个当前世界的印象。之前他听了”日本炸重庆“的历史事件以后用小朋友的视角表示要炸日本,在他的眼里这就像小朋友打了我一下我就还手打他一下,太复杂的事情他搞不懂,也容易理解“偏”。我给他讲了个故事😓:

从前一个叫中国的小朋友长得身体挺好,后来他光吃零食不好好吃饭,也不好好运动天天坐着看电视,结果身体变得很瘦弱,而欧洲美国日本俄罗斯等小朋友每天好好吃饭好好锻炼身体长的很强壮,他们都喜欢欺负弱小的中国小朋友。中国小朋友觉得不想再被欺负了于是好好吃饭锻炼身体,身体越来越强壮,而欧洲啊美国啊这些小朋友不锻炼身体还天天吃垃圾食品长的很肥胖,于是中国小朋友渐渐的比他们更强壮,其他小朋友再也不敢欺负他了。

(好困)

今天刷微博刷到王一博谈自控力,是关注的一个公众号的微博,自控力的前提是清楚的知道自己要做什么,同时看了一个ted演讲,一个人大学碌碌而为成绩不好不坏没有什么拼劲,后面清楚的知道自己想要什么样的生活就努力的去实现,可以一天连续工作12个小时一下子坚持6个月,沉浸在里面,最后完成了自己的设想(感觉特别像孩子爸爸工作起来的样子)。再结合前一阵的衡水中学的演讲视频,“能给自己一个清晰的认知和定位,保持美好的心态找到自己热爱的事物去努力”有多重要。高考固然重要,但是人生不能只靠高考。去努力然后欣然接受最后的结果,就像我当年一样,知道自己分数的时候没有很难过很伤心也没有懊恼,认真的去选新的学校,拿到通知书的时候还蛮期待。

走到这里了,有两个孩子的我还得继续修行。

2021.6.6-北京

今天是周末,已经连续两天没出门了,在家里“躺平”。找个理由的话就是天太热,不想出门。幸亏娃娃妈没有生气说宅在家里,完事大吉:)。

现在我正趴在客厅地板上,看《月亮与六便士》,发现有段话和我之前的经历好像——除了我安静的坐在一旁,每个人都在交流,而我感觉很难融入。

English Version

Today is Sunday and we’ve almost spent the whole time and home this weekend. It’s too hot, if there needs a reason for not going out. Fortunately, Ian and Zoe’s mother is not upset for that, which is most important 🙂

For now I’m laying on the floor and reading 《THE MOON AND SIXPENCE》, and I found one paragraph can depict one scenario I’ve encountered into for many times , that “Everyone seems to be talking, and I, sitting in silence, felt awkward; but I was too shy to break into any of the groups that seems absorbed in their own affairs. “

2021.4.22 杭州

今天终于把流水线跑通上测试环境了,可能哪里还有点问题,对接kafka消息的时候,那边显示没有收到数据。不过应该问题不大了,明天应该可以解决,这次出差也算完成一件大事。

应该是这周末大家陆续就会离开杭州回去了,所以今晚几个组的人组织了一下聚餐,又见到了几个同事,不过依然不认识。我发现我开始不太想去主动挑起或参与话题,小小的反思过,是冷漠吗,是清高吗,是内向吗,还是什么原因。最后似乎只是简单的更享受旁观者的状态,也有一点把热闹都留给年轻人的意思(我也不老啊,喂)。

明天晚上九点的飞机回北京,落地十一点半,到家应该凌晨了,不过周六能有一整天跟小家伙们待在一起,比浪费周六的时间在路上要好多了。

就这样,晚安。

English Version

Finally, the reworked service have passed the pipeline and been deployed to the beta environment. There’s still some problem that Kafka server seems hasn’t got the message yet. Anyway, it’s a big progress and I think we can figure it out tomorrow before I left Hangzhou. It’s a success for this business travel I think.

Everyone would like to leave Hangzhou this week, so we hang out and eat together, I’ve seen some guys in the same team, but haven’t know each other yet. I find that I would prefer not to start or take part in a topic if was not ask to. I ask myself about this, am I too cold, am I think I was above everyone, am I introvert, or any other reason? The answer seems like I just more comfortable to standalone and listen rather than talk, it’s belong to the youngers (hey, I’m still young too LOL).

The flight is 21:00 to 23:30 tomorrow, it seems I cant get home before twelve clock ,but it’s a happy things that I can spent the whole day with the kids, much much better than waste it on the way on travel.

That’s all, good night.

2021.4.20 杭州

今天抢了一下五一节返程的火车票,没有抢到,本来是想抢个软卧,壕哥肯定喜欢在火车上睡觉的感觉。可惜了哈哈,看看后面能不能捡漏。

回来的比平时稍微晚点了,有点困了,打算少写一些,好像也没有特别的事。噢对了,刚才更新了一下网站,换了一个主题,不晓得娃娃妈喜不喜欢。

晚安吧那就。

English Version

It’s a pity that haven’t bought the ticket for the soft berth on International worker’s day back from Chongqing to Beijing. Ian would love to sleep on train I think as he loves train so much. I’ll see if I can get it in the follow days.

It’s a little late today, I feel a little tired and don’t want to write too much, and it seems nothing serious today. Oh I upgrade this site and change a new theme, hope the children’s mother would like it.

So, that’s it, good night.

2021.4.19 杭州

出差的第二周。

今天顺利跟赫德的招生老师聊了一下Ian,应该还不错吧,老师应该能感觉到我们家对教育的一些理解,希望Ian能顺利通过这次评测。

工作进展说不上顺利,也说不上不顺利。

顺利的是该见的人基本都见了,除了SMG主任。留过言,没有回音,等以后工作上有具体交集以后再说吧。

帮大家重写那个微服务已经三周了,真正设计和写用了大概一周多一点的是时间,剩下的都是在适配当前的基础设施。以前以为既然是云,那当然是快速迭代上线的,但实际我们还差很多,很多东西也都还比较笨重。

得益于go语言本身在云计算领域的优势,我非常确定的知道重写的这一份代码比以前好太多,而且代码量降低了85%。还是得益于go语言本身的优势,在DFT这一块,以前可以认为是0,这次也顺手写了一部分。

其实SMG那边也明确了各个场景语言的使用选择,我觉得还是比较合适的。只是团队里目前还没有太跟得上,现在反而是比较犹豫。跟我想得不太一样。

慢慢来吧,产品的事情,推太急也不见得是好事。

English Version

Today is Monday and the second week in Hangzhou of this business trip.

Ian’s mother and I have talked with the officer of HD school in the morning and I think it’s a nice talk, we’ve exchanged the view about teaching. Hope Ian can pass this interview.

As for the work, I can’t say it’s all good, though not that bad. Have meet people who I have to except for the leader of SMG, I’ve left a message but got no response, it’s OK, I think we can talk about the work in the future .

Three weeks ago, I started to rewrite a micro service and have got it done in about one week, and I spent the rest time to make it adjust the current infrastructure. I thought everything on Cloud Computing is devops , but there is a significant gap between the reality and my imagination, there are many things we make it too heavy.

As per the rewritten micro service, it’s definitely better than the old one because of the power of Golang, it’s a programing language for Cloud Native Computing. The lines of code is 85% less than the old one which make it much better to be maintained in the future. Anther thing I think it’s better is the new one is Design for Testablity , when writing the code , I’ve considerer about it a little bit.

Actually there is some principle published by SMG about the programing language usage for certain scenarios which I think is quite OK, it’s just the guys in my team have not aware about it which make them hesitate about changing to Golang. Anyway, it’s a little different with what I’ve thought about.

There seems not a way to make it as a quick win , what I can do is take it easy and slowly, maybe it is not a good thing to push too badly, especially for production.